I will never forget you

In life people cross or pathways for a reason and then they venture off on another pathway and we have to learn to let go of what we had even if it was for a short moment... We must learn to let go but must not ever forget..

Your nearly a memory...

Its been 10 days seen I saw you last and 5 days since we spoke and the amount of times I have picked up my phone wanting to text you or hoping that the alert "1 new message" is from you is countless. I don't know how I can miss someone when I don't even know you all that well. It's like we just clicked and you told me all these things and then bang your gone..... It's hard to deal with and not make up scenarios in my head but I'm trying hard not to get my hopes up but at the same time wishing some of those scenarios were true...

Happiness

What is the definition of happiness? Does anyone know what true happiness is and if they do how did they find it and how do they know its the happiest they will ever be....

I miss you and you haven't even left me yet...

I don't know what I am going to do when you leave.. Your the person I turn to first your the one that makes me laugh when all I want to do is cry. Your the one that understands me better than anybody else. If I don't make any sense at all you still manage to understand me.

You put up with my tantrums, my crazy spurts of laughter, my insanity and even when I say I don't need you and that I am fine your still always there... Your my best friend, my sister, my gaurdian angel and my idol......

Change is a wonderful thing and it will only bring us closer and make us grow as people. Change only happens if you want it to and it is a reminder that you obviously wanted something to change or you wouldn't of change it.I know you have to go and I am so excited for you but I want you to know that you are everything to me and I am always here and cannot wait to join you on this adventure....

How do you know if it's to soon to move on?

How do you know when your ready to move on or if the person your currently seeing is wanting to move on? You think all is fine but then all of a sudden things change dramatically from talking every day all day to then only a few small conversations to then find out they really like you but aren't sure if they are ready to move forward.

Do you wait around for them to be ready? Is this them just letting you down slowly... Whatever it is the feeling and thoughts are horrible....

...To many thoughts

WOW what a weekend.... Arrievd Friday and we went for dinner at an up market Italian resturant... Followed by some snuggerling and kisses that night. Saturday we hit the markets shopping and then went to some factory outlets where we both spent up a storm, followed by a swim in the pool after-noon snooze and then drinks dinner and a night out on the town with some mutual friends.... He danced with me during the night it was just amazing. My feelings have grown so much that I don't know what to do with them or does he even feel the same? Maybe he does and just hasn't said it or maybe he doesn't, how would I ever know.....

Our sexual attraction is beyond words, I just can't keep my hands off him, even though he isn't the biggest man of public affection. When I went to leave on the Sunday i got the biggest squeeze of a hug and in a blink o fan eye I was in the cab back to the airport unable to hold back my tears. He won't leave my mind, maybe I am obsessing to much about it.......

The excitement and preparations begin

I can't contain my excitement.. One more sleep and I am jet setting off to see this man who might just be perfect. Hair has been cut and coloured, nails painted, spray tan tonight, it's all happening and packing still needs to be done.


We still have spoken every day through text and phone calls and I just can't seem to stop talking to him we just click and don't ever have a dull moment it's great.

The butterflies have set in but I think it's a good feeling of anticipation and excitement... Keep you all posted on my weekend away....

You never truly know someone....

Have you ever tried Internet dating? Well I haven't personally but my girl friend has and after her experience I'm hoping I will never have to but I suppose you do have to sift through but that's even when your dating face to face. Thought I'd share you all a story and then maybe you could share yours and hopefully yours are more on a positive note....

My girls friend had been talking to this guy for about 3 months now. They would text, call, skype and e-mail one another daily. He lives in another city so they deiced she would come down for a weekend and if all goes to plan they shall go to Bali together in the coming weeks. She pays for her flights, he books the hotel they are going to stay in so far so good..... She rings me we speak about what she is going to wear on the plane so the first impression was a good one and we spoke about topics of conversation and places to eat as I am quite familiar with the city....

It comes to the big day I get a text saying "so excited but so nervous to finally meet him...." Then 2 hours later a phone call is coming through. (my thoughts are Oh my gosh she would of arrived and met him by now but clearly wrong) I answer excitedly and then suddenly stop she is mumbling and in tears... He had sent her a text which read "what ever you do not get on the plane! I have just had a car accident and I am going into lock up now the police are taking my phone off me and I have a couple of broken ribs, talk soon." Luckily she had a back up plane to go and visit and stay with a friend but since then no contact at all...

I really hope it was the truth and not just a way of getting out of the date as he seemed from what I was told like a lovely guy, but really how much do you truly know about someone and at what point to do you know them completely??

does a palm reading give you the answers to your love life...

Do the answers lay on our palm as to our next move in our love life or even our life in general and does it change or is it all mapped out and we don't even know it....

I love you .. I love you not ..

Long distance relationships can they work? How long do you both agree between visits? How long until you have to make the decision that it's not long distance anymore..... I am faced with these questions now when life was seeming so perfect.

A gorgeous guy walked right into my life when I least expected it.. He is perfection, everything you could ask for. He's the guy you dream of having and then he is lying next to you in your bedroom. I've known him for a few years now and recently started talking a lot more and getting to know one another. So far so good and then he comes for a visit (he lives 10 hours away). We go on a date and I honestly can't explain perfection without thinking of him. He's gorgeous to look at, has ambition and determination, great fun and understands my sense of humor. The best kisses the best cuddles what more could I ask for. I've never felt so comfortable around someone until this moment....

He stays for a week and we catch up 3 times and talk every day! We haven't stopped talking since the moment we started texting and reconnecting. The feeling of butterflies and weak knees all of a sudden comes rushing back.and then you catch one another staring into each others eyes and then that smile that says I think I'm head over heels for you.

Now I am off  to visit him in 10 days and this is where the problems and questions begin. What are we? What can we be? And am I just going to want you far to often and get hurt because your not 15 minutes down the road your a 10 hour car drive or a 2 hour plane trip.

I have just taken on the dream job your world seems as though its piecing it's self together and in walks someone who could be the rest of your life....... Someone who all of a sudden means more than anything