Worlds apart....

I hadn't realized how different to me you were until I got to know you better and this all begun over waffles, ice cream, strawberries, banana and my all time favourite food melted milk chocolate....... Not that I showed you but I love anything chocolate.. I loved that you enjoyed it so much you wanted to feed me so I could embrace the taste of strawberries and melted chocolate together... Even though we had met a few times this time was different. You opened up to me and spoke about your life, it's been very different to mine and quite inspiring to say the least.

I didn't want to admit it but sitting there talking to you time went to quick, I could have sat there and listened till the sun came up. The way you looked into my eyes gave me butterflies, the stories you told made my heart race, sink and smile with excitment.

Our worlds are totally opposite you came to Australia at age 7 with no understanding of the language or the new environment you were in. Since then you speak fluent English have embraced the culture here yet still have your believes of the world you were once and still very much apart of. You have embraced your world and you have a beautiful soul that has a beautiful out look on life and what it's all about.

Your more relaxed and cruisy unlike myself yet still very ambitious and motivated. I can tell you like adventures and you want to experience anything and will do it with such a positive mind set. I feel free when I'm around you and as if I could achieve anything, you have opened my eyes to the world I currently live in and the things I hate and need to change now seem alot easier and achievable.

People walk into our life to teach us a new lesson we haven't learn't before, they all leave there foot print some are more impressionable than others. Even though I still hardly know you, you have made a foot print in my life.....

The Answers......

I never thought I'd say this but I've created a monster in my relationship. I feel in love with an emotionally strong, outgoing, talented man. Who was emotionless.... I fought for him to stay true to me open up be free relaxed happy and instead I've created an insecure mess of a relationship...

Our worlds intertwined a year ago and I remember feeling anxious that I wasn't good enough and I'd lose you in a second. Now I have we have been inseparable except this time your different... Your not the you I met before you scared, weak, uncertain and grasping on to every last thread. 

I don't know what to say I don't know if this is even the end but my chest is tight the tears don't stop rolling down my face and the more anxious you become the more I pull away as I'm scared I've created this monster.  

Complete me

... I've begun to realise how you help make me feel like that better person.... ... How you correct my thinking from a negative to a positive thought just so I don't get in a spin about what I look like, what I ate and the choices I am making are the right ones. How you even know that it's right I don't know but you give me the confidence that it's all going to be ok... ... When your not around I feel like a limb is missing, I'm anxious, my chest feels tight and I find it hard to breath. Your reassurance is never far away though and even though I play tough and pretend I don't hear what you say to prove that I do matter, it feels like when your not there I'm not a whole person...