In love or best friends

You are my best friend, your as smart as me as out going as me, ambitious, funny, lovable, energetic, charismatic and angry like me.... We are like two peas in a pod but are we just best friends. Do you listen to what I say or do I just feel like I can never open up or discuss me... Is that self fish that I feel like I get no time to talk or boast about me... I feel like I don't get that time or its very limited so to speak as to what hours in the day are put into me and my goals together as a couple...

I put my effort time energy into reaching your goals so your happy but yet my goals haven't been met. All my goals are always put on the back burner or non existent or to hard for me to achieve as I don't have my best friend standing there cheering me on.

Maybe this is how love works its all one sided... Maybe this is just a friendship and we are the best of friends lost and consumed by ourselves unable to help one another... I don't know but the anxious pressure on my chest that causes me not to breath is eating at me and I don't know what to do....