Lean on me

I do have to say even though it mighten be official its nice to have someone to lean on every so often and do the same in return. Like a companion type of relationship. Makes it hard to walk away I'll say that not that I want to walk away but I'm worried if this doesn't eventually progress then I'm going to get hurt but in the mean time whilst it's still not official I do have to say leaning on you is nice....

If I could be so lucky...

Everyone has an ex. Unless ofcourse your 12 again... But in most cases someone has been with he or she before and there is baggage from that relationship still lying around.. At what point do you move on and at what point does the ex move on ???

When do you determine all those things and at what point does dating become to long and acctually labeling it come into play...?? Is there a time limit?

If only I were to be as lucky as the last to have you.

love you

Life...

It's amazing how everything turns out it.. Maybe it is true - Things must just happen for a reason. Like people walking in and out of your life, a tragedy occurring telling us we need to slow down and appreciate the little things or the good and amazing things that happen that reminds you why you are who you have become.

I mean we spend our life's trying to correct ourselves.. I'm not skinny enough, I'm not pretty enough, I hate my hair like this, I want that.. When does it stop!! What are we comparing ourselves to and who is it that set the bar so high or maybe its just our minds.... Amazing how someone can think your so amazing when they first meet you but once they spend 2 years with you and know how you work and your good and bad points you all of a sudden get bored and over the same thing yet the majority of us hate change and the unknown... Are we every truly happy...?

Day by day Ive been trying to give myself positive feedback embracing who I am. embracing the things I hate about myself or should I say I am slowly falling in love with them... Because I've come to the realization if I don't begin to love myself who is ever going to be able to love me completely. No matter how much positive feedback someone gives you you'll never believe it until you truly embrace it...

So as of today I am embracing my short hair, my bitten untidy nails, my belly and thighs and if you don't like it well tough its who I am and it makes me who I am....

Now your probably wondering where all of this has come from and I suppose maybe it is the new man.... For 4 weeks now I have tried to perfect myself to what it is I think he wants from me or how he wants me to look... But without even knowing if its that he ever wanted me to look like - Silly I know.... Since then I have grown some kind of a brain and realize hang on a minute this guy fell for me when I had all those things I hate about myself anyway so why do I have to change now to impress him? I don't that's the answer I've just made it all up in my head.

Whilst having breakfast this morning all this came flashing before my eyes and I wondered how silly I had been to even think like that and wondered how many other girls out there do the same thing, make scenarios up in our heads and get all frantic about it all and stressed about how we should look for someone to love us when in reality they already do. So as I stand in the kitchen eating my yogurt and berries with my tackies and a baggy singlet with little make up on mr. right walks behind me grabbing my bum and stomach (The things I hate most as they are...... not as tones as we would like say) kisses my neck and says "mmmmm I love your bum..." Shock horror why am I so worried about it then I thought and why in the world am I forever covering myself or wearing suck me in undies if these are the things I am suppose to be embracing. I know what will happen I'll get t 40 years old and think didn't I have the best bum back then......

So from now on girls embrace those curves, flabby bits, wavy hair, pimples because in most cases the moment you stop worrying about them is the moment they disappear and it's also going to make you love yourself more so that mr. right or who ever he is will love you and your confidence so much more.

"Gravitation cannot be held responsible for people falling in love"

you make my world keep turning thank you.....

Butterfly feeling

Love is something that just happens it's uncontrollable no matter how much you try an avoid it... It's there stalking you at every corner. No matter how many times you tell yourself your not going to fall this time and then all of a sudden that warm, scary, vulnerable feeling coming rushing from all directions and your faced with that big mushy feeling of LOVE...

I've just met someone or no wait.... Let me start again I met them 3 months ago and we just clicked. Very similar in personality, similar believes and both have a lot of drive, determination, goals and ambitions. We both bounce of each of down side is our angry streak and short temper that is within both of us but hey you can't blame our make up we just need to work on controlling it. We have spent every day texting or calling even though we will be seeing each other in 5 minutes. Nearly every second night we have been together unless the odd night we need space or we are away for work but otherwise he's been there. I told myself it was something casual not to rush just breeze through it but mow we are getting deeper into falling for each other and it's amazing....

A relationship should just work no extra effort to please one another - well maybe a little but it shouldn't be hard ..... They should be like your best friend I mean I definitely feel some kind of connection but is it to early to tell..... Am
I getting to caught up in the moment....