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Life...

It's amazing how everything turns out it.. Maybe it is true - Things must just happen for a reason. Like people walking in and out of your life, a tragedy occurring telling us we need to slow down and appreciate the little things or the good and amazing things that happen that reminds you why you are who you have become.

I mean we spend our life's trying to correct ourselves.. I'm not skinny enough, I'm not pretty enough, I hate my hair like this, I want that.. When does it stop!! What are we comparing ourselves to and who is it that set the bar so high or maybe its just our minds.... Amazing how someone can think your so amazing when they first meet you but once they spend 2 years with you and know how you work and your good and bad points you all of a sudden get bored and over the same thing yet the majority of us hate change and the unknown... Are we every truly happy...?

Day by day Ive been trying to give myself positive feedback embracing who I am. embracing the things I hate about myself or should I say I am slowly falling in love with them... Because I've come to the realization if I don't begin to love myself who is ever going to be able to love me completely. No matter how much positive feedback someone gives you you'll never believe it until you truly embrace it...

So as of today I am embracing my short hair, my bitten untidy nails, my belly and thighs and if you don't like it well tough its who I am and it makes me who I am....

Now your probably wondering where all of this has come from and I suppose maybe it is the new man.... For 4 weeks now I have tried to perfect myself to what it is I think he wants from me or how he wants me to look... But without even knowing if its that he ever wanted me to look like - Silly I know.... Since then I have grown some kind of a brain and realize hang on a minute this guy fell for me when I had all those things I hate about myself anyway so why do I have to change now to impress him? I don't that's the answer I've just made it all up in my head.

Whilst having breakfast this morning all this came flashing before my eyes and I wondered how silly I had been to even think like that and wondered how many other girls out there do the same thing, make scenarios up in our heads and get all frantic about it all and stressed about how we should look for someone to love us when in reality they already do. So as I stand in the kitchen eating my yogurt and berries with my tackies and a baggy singlet with little make up on mr. right walks behind me grabbing my bum and stomach (The things I hate most as they are...... not as tones as we would like say) kisses my neck and says "mmmmm I love your bum..." Shock horror why am I so worried about it then I thought and why in the world am I forever covering myself or wearing suck me in undies if these are the things I am suppose to be embracing. I know what will happen I'll get t 40 years old and think didn't I have the best bum back then......

So from now on girls embrace those curves, flabby bits, wavy hair, pimples because in most cases the moment you stop worrying about them is the moment they disappear and it's also going to make you love yourself more so that mr. right or who ever he is will love you and your confidence so much more.