Do you ever feel so alone that you could nearly run away to another city and no one would even realise that you were gone? This sensation lately has taken over my body and I feel as if I can't do anything to change it.
My love life is dead its completely non existent... What I wanted I can't have and then I question do I really want that and worry about what other people are going to say if I do what I want.... I probably shouldn't care what others think but it crosses my mind to oftern than not.
Then my friendships I have now begun to realise are all a one way street if I don't call or text or organize something I never hear from them which is a shame really especially when they class you as a best friend..... What best friends are they if they don't call or contact me especially when most of them know that my life at the moment is chaos but I suppose we find these things out through big changes in our life's. Not only that my best friend has moved 10 hours away and it feels strange not having her here but I know i won't lose her...
But this alone feeling never ends or at least it doesn't feel like it will. Even when in a large group of people I can still feel so alone... It's as though it follows me around and I am reminded every second that I have no one.
I wish I could be surrounded by people I loved and can understand me... Then just maybe this feeling will pass.
I know these times when you feel empty and very alone, when it seems everybody has left you and you wish you could fly away, a bit sad wandering if somebody will notice it or not.
ReplyDeleteIt is then you realise who your true friends are.
Heartbreaks need time to feel lighter. But I know as I've been through this, there's light at the end of the long dark tunnel. And one day Life takes her rights back.